I honestly don’t give a shit about anything anymore. Goodbye morals.
he deserves more as he is such a good actor
Shang’s journey to self discovery as told by me
Go on, tell them I ate your homework. They’ll never believe you.
I came home to a sheltered house with my parents waiting patiently as I imperfectly completed a semester of hell.
They expected the best, but I achieved the worst, so fed them a lie to protect myself from being lashed at for not comparing to my sister.
Every day and every second they expect me to be like her. But how can I be like her, when I can’t even be myself.
My friends tell me it’ll be okay, to do what I love and not worry about what my parents say and I listen to them because they’re right.
It’s my life, it’s my future, I’ll do what I can, I’ll do what I want because this life I’m living is not theirs, but mine.
But when it comes to face them, I can’t.
I never manage to pull up the might and courage to look them in the eyes and say, “Sorry, I just can’t”
So I push myself to meet their standards, only to lose myself in the process.
Being caught in the middle of a battle between them and me is a battle I cannot fight. A battle I cannot win.
At this point, all I am is just a little bitch that cannot grow the balls to defy my own parents about my own future.
Instead, I put up with it to fulfill their satisfaction because their satisfaction is the only thing that will make me successful, since it’s the only drive that I have.
Without them I’d be nothing but a deer in the headlights waiting to be struck down. So I’ll struggle.
Every fucking second I’ll struggle.
Because in the end they’re just looking out after me. No matter how much I hate it now, I’ll appreciate it when I get there..
So Thank you. Thank you for making me hate life so much right now. But no matter how much hate there is, because of you, I’ll love it in the future.
Prove to me that you still care..
Fight for me the way I fought for you.
You can’t see it but he was in tears when he was free styling. I can relate to what every word he says and it’s just coming out straight from the heart of what he still feels.
Who is this boy? Praisin’.
mother fucka kept it 100. so relevant.